our 1st day puasa..

Slamat berpuasa folks!

so first day puasa semlm..not baaad..bgn sahur pukul 4 pagi memasak lauk sahur-apakah hidangannya?kobis tumis air, ikan goreng, sambal belacan..sempoi..hihi-actually me and hubby dah 2 thn berpuasa bersama ni taklah orgnya yg bgn sahur, it just that 2-3 mlm pertama tu org kata ambik berakah la n kira cam larat lg kan nak bgn, so ala2 gaya isteri mithali la aku pg tu bgn terkulat2 dan memasak di subuh bening sunyi..simple2 je sbb pagi2 mmg tak tertelan..saje buat syarat alas perut..nnti dah lama2 mmg aku telan roti sekeping ng minum susu je la, hubby lg terus kong tak bgn,kejut suruh minum ayaq masak pun payah..n dah ujung2 nnti aku bgn just mkn buah kurma 2-3 biji pastu minum susu, eh ok gakla boleh la thn perut ni..tu petua aku dpt dr cikgu sekolah..so semlm tghari gi ajak hubby gi kompleks pkns shah alam, baju hubby tak berjahit lg!risau dah org ni,kain dah lama beli tp baju nya tak hantar2 kat tailor..baju aku ng irina selamat dah,maklumlah ibu mertua pandai menjahit hihi selamaaat..

so semlm tghari gi pkns shah alam, 2-3 kedai tailor gak dah tanya n kebykkan diaorg taknak ambik dah.."sebln dah akak stop tak ambik tempahan dik oi..tu tgk berlonggok baju tu!" mak aii mmg berlonggok,harus patah jarum mesin jahit akak ni nak menjahit segunung tu, ni kalu aku gamble gak suruh akak tu jahit harus laki aku beraya ng kain guni di pagi raya..
so kedai ke3 at laaast alhamdulillah,akak tu nak ambik,dia ckp baju melayu takpe tp baju kurung dia taknak dah..rm90, ok ke tak harga ni?pikir2 takpe la,dah la last min,dah ada org nak jahitkan pun kira dah bernasib baik, kat muar pun org jahit upah rm60..ok la ni kan?hubby kata kalu tak dpt gak dia nak pakai je baju nikah dulu utk raya..cik abg ni teringin naik pelamin lg gamaknya ni..papepun semlm aku budget dah kalu tak dpt tailor,beli je la baju melayu dah siap tp cam tak best laa,sbb kain aku beli ni mmg sepasang dah ng warna baju aku nnti,so ala2 tak match gitu nnti..papehal pun hati lega sbb kes kain dah settle..pastu jln2 kat pkns jap,meriah la kat sini esp bln puasa, dah terasa kemeriahan nak beraya, ye laa baju kurung,baju melayu,kuih muih biskut raya kerepek semua ada jual, sempat lg beli lemang, saje ambik feel nak raya hehe

so blk umah semlm sibuk lak prepare juadah berbuka, bersenduk bagai la aku kat dapur..semlm masak ikan rebus asam, sambal udang petai, goreng ikan, sayur campur..and hubby lak gi pasar ramadhan beli air tebu,tembikai n kuih muih..hah lupa lak kat tgk lauk pauk mknan atas meja mcm nak mkn 10 org, itu budak kicik?ada ada..sibuk org nak msak,sibukla dia nak kacau,nak mangkuk la,nak senduk la,main beras laa..ingat waktu buka boleh la lega2 skit mkn ng aman,hmm tak aihh..itu budak kicik tara bg chance punya,dia sibuk gak kat meja tu, sibuk sepahkan nasi, sibuk sendukkan lauk utk mommy ng abah,sibuk dgn percubaan2 memecahkan pinggan..anak..anak..mmg penat, mmg letih, tp seronok!so tu cite 1st day puasa kitaorang 3 beranak..

mar's crap..

Nothing to crap about..

No major things happen so far..

it just that aliff is recuperating from the sickness and the mama was very thankful of getting herself back home..aliff was discharged last saturday around 4pm..and that day,being a good auntie, i packed my belongings n went to hospital with the hope of staying overnite to look after lil aliff, then aliff kluar plak ptg tu..alhamdulillah la kan..but then i went blank,blurr.. alamak what to do?my montel irina dah dihantar kat umah ma, ye la org ni kan berniat suci nak tido spital, terpaksa mintak tlg ma jaga irina..then i called ma.."ala ambik irina esok je la"..hmmm..ini adalah sudah dijangkakan, grandma kalu cucu kesygan dah dlm genggaman adalah susah utk dilepaskan hokay,dont play2 with grandma..hubby?uihh the first to plan his own agenda with his guy frens since he knew i might b spending my day at spital..around 5, hubby fetched me at hospital n asked me to join him, all guys..alahai,cm boring je, nvmind dear, i dropped him at city squre, we had tea break then i drove back home, hubby nak blk nnti pandai2 la kwn dia hantar...so as a reward to myself yg bercita2 tido spital tp tak kesampaian, i called K my indian colleague yg umah pun sepelaung je dr umah i,haha apa lagi..buat la plan bujang..after maghrib, we went mkn2 at pelita subang, chit chat ketawa terbahak2 sampai lupa dunia, jln2 uptown sampai pukul 1 pg,wallawey..bujang kan?kan?

what else to crap? hah yesterday, i went back early, dropped by kat clinic panel to get some obat, selsema ng sakit tekak la plak..no pain,no gain,tu laa weekend terbahak2kan sampai kul 1 pagikan?sukakan?tak hengat donia kan?skang rasain..so this is another 'reward' on top of giving my goodself that saturday's reward..office?workload not that bad, boss spt biasa ikut hangin dia, rasa nak moody dia moody, rasa nak berkasih syg,dia boh je berkasih syg ng sume org, ada yg kuat brag, bongkak, ada plak colleague yg kematian immediate family member n he's still grieving,al-fatihah..mcm2 cite,ada happy,ada sedih, ada drama.. hah one more thing, E our secretary still dress up sexily, her cleavage can be seen everywhere in this ofis and guys' colleague never stop talking n peeping on her big boobs haha mcm2 hal..

so that's one part of it, cerita2 seharian, cerita2 kehidupan..i look at it as an overall, life seems to have its' up and down-ada masa senang,ada masa susah, ada masa down, ada masa happy,ada masa sihat,ada masa sakit, ada masa kita rasa kitalah manusia paling bertuah di dunia,ada masa we feel like dunia treat us so unfair n fate is always not by our side, ada masa kita dilayan teruk, ditipu di'kencing' but still ada masa org lain akan treat kita baik, jujur n ikhlas..apa aje la aku ckp ni..

so folks, just be nice to everybody, jujur n ikhlas tu penting..daaa..

:(

My heart goes to Ija yg skang ni sedang berkampung di hospital..

Aliff has been warded since monday and till today no clue whatsoever of our little aliff to get discharged..haaishh..pity aliff,pity Ija..

masalah ija,masalah aku, sedih ija, sedih aku, happy ija,happy aku..

we are too attached n closed,that's y aku tak boleh buat2 buta pejam mata bila ija susah camni..in fact not only me but my whole entire family terasa..mak,abah, along, adik..since i'm the only one adik beradik yg dok kat kl n dekat ngan ija,i try my best to help her..physically and emotionally,ye la nak tlg byrkan bil spital tu cam tak mampu la plak kan..so tlg la mana yg termampu n patut..

actually ni kali ke-2 aliff warded dlm masa 2minggu ni, hari tu masa cuti merdeka alif kena thn 3hari kat spital sbb diaorrhea, and baru kluar seminggu lebih aliff masuk wad lg..kali ni sbb lelah plak..he's wheezing,and the attack was quite severe with so much phlegm inside his lung, so takat ambik neubelizer kat clinic cam tak jln dah,he needs to be put under doc's supervision..so since monday aliff kena thn wad, meaning since monday jugakla ija jadi sebhgian penghuni hospital..without any chance to go back home or pergi bekerja..nasibla org government,so cuti seminggu pun tarak hal punya..part tu ok,but part ija kena take care alif sorang2 kat spital tu yg sian tu..ye laa..alif tak sihat so he's kind of cranky,nak mama dukung je,tgk nurse dia dah menjerit meronta2 everytime nak pasang gas neubilizer kat mulut, then ye la baby sakit tido pun tak nyenyak,everytime tgh tido dah kena jab la,mkn ubat la,..mcm2 hal la yg buatkan mood aliff tak baik..so effect mamanya jugak..ari ke-2 ija kat spital dia dah demam,menggigil2 kat ward,bdn dah mmg sedia tak sihat,duk dlm ward penat jaga aliff dgn dia sendiri tak cukup tido,yg spital ni pun satu sengal aircon kuat ngalah dlm freezer,mana tak demam..so can u imagine ija sorang2 yg tak sihat tu nak jaga anak dia yg mmg sedia maklum sakit?
mak mmg tak boleh nak dtg sbb tlg jaga qistina kat muar, n PUSRAWI punya policy ialah kaum bapa tak dibenarkan bermlm kat ward kanak2 (unless single room) so abg hafiz also couldnt offer much..haaish tak boleh jadik, sian akak aku sorang ni..

so i plan with adik to take turn teman ija n tlg jaga aliff, hari rabu adik ambik leave tak kerja sanggup dtg dr melaka utk teman ija, dr pagi smpi mlm tp tak stayover,adik blk melaka mlm tu jugak sbb esoknya dia kena keje..adik,lu mmg penyelamat kakak2 lu,dari kakak lu sakit nak beranak sampai la ni bila dah beranak,anak plak sakit masuk spital lu la yg setia menolong, the fisrt come as a rescuer,even u retard but wa mmg syg lu..nnti wa bg bulu kambing yg lu idam2kan tu sempena birthday lu akan dtg..bytheway thanks a lot to my dearest adik..
so semlm turn aku lak teman ija..sanggup amik leave ni,tak pedulik dah..pas hantar irina kat nurseri i made my way to Pusrawi dlm kul 9.30 camtu, teman ija n help her as much as i could..
fuhh patut la adik suruh aku awal2 practise pikul guni beras,aliff mmg semangat!lenguh tgn dukung dia..so basically semlm aku keje tlg dukung alif bwk jln2, bwk gi blk mainan,so dpt la ija rest kejap, dia nak mandi ke, mkn ke sng la ada org take turn jaga..and esok air sabtu aku plan nak berkampung lagi kat spital, mayb tido sana kot?

so readers,pls pray for aliff,semoga dia sembuh cpt n boleh discaj awal from hospital, n pray for ija's too as she's emotionally unstable and her willpower and fortitude is gradually declining..semoga ija tabah n sabar dgn ujian Allah..n to sesapa yg ada tips2 utk mencegah athma attack or cara menjaga anak yg ada athma,pls kindly share it with me, appreciate it much..

p/s:minggu ni mmg minggu down aku, sedih..hurt..have a nice weekend ppl..

Me being Me

I always ask myself with this question..adakah aku ini seorg ibu yg baik?adakah juga aku ini seorg isteri yg baik kpd suamiku?

Hmmm..

Eh why suddenly ek?tetiba je mengutarakan persoalan2 yg berbunyi poyo ini

My fren (a married lady n a mom) always bombarded me with questions every time I left irina at her atuk’s place or setiapkali aku membujangkan diri without hubby:

Ko boleh ek tinggalkan anak ko sesaje je..ko tak rindu ke?ish aku ngan anak aku mmg takleh pisah langsung!laki aku pun mrh tinggal2kan anak,dia ckp mak jenis apa camtu..erkk
Or
Laaa..ko mc kan?ada kat umah kan? apsal antar gak irina gi nursery?lepak la ng dia kat rumah..aku mc pun tak hantar anak gi babysitter,bkn apa sian kat dia..(err ibu yg tgh sakit takleh bgn kepala berpusing mcm berpinar sekejap dgr..)

Ataupun berbunyi begini

Apsal laki kau tak join gahthering?korang boleh ek, cam laki kau ng kwn2 dia, yg kau plak ng kitaorg kat sini,masing2 hal sendiri je..aku ng laki aku gi memana mesti sama2,aku heret gak dia mana aku gi..ko camni nnti org ckp ko ni ibu tunggal lak tak berlaki..LERRR..

So that’y suddenly aku terpikir eh teruk sgt ke aku ni?bini org lain tak camni ke?adakah aku ini berperangai buruk?

But actually I have my own opinions and methods dlm menjaga bab2 keharmonian ni and so far alhamdulillah it works and I’m soo lucky that R.A also think the same way as I am..it’s all bout giving a break or best described as having my own space, free sekejap dr rutin2 harian biasa,baru boleh refresh bdn n minda..agak poyo bunyinya but that's true

It’s like my recent gathering, bkn tak ajak hubby langsung,but he’s the one who insisted me to go by myself without him tagging along, he made a point that..’jarang2 jumpa, just spend a quality time with your friend, cite whateva u feel like cerita, nak ketawa terbahak ke, mengumpat ke, just enjoy the time, if I’m with u, nnti u tak really enjoy..betul gak, kang laki ada harus byk nak kena cover line, cite2 harus byk di sensor heheh- u see..he was giving me a space, ye laa..siang kerja, mlm bergelumang ng anak, masak la,basuh la, mengemasla..so tu yg kdg2 cik abg ni rasa kesian kat bini dia,skali skala bg la break jumpa lepak ng kwn2..n that’s y gak dia tak kasi bwk irina, ye la dia tak join dahtu kang irina berlari panjat sana sini celah mana kang aku nak bergossip bagai.. so that’s the konsep laa-same with me here, sometimes ppl throw me questions or membygkan yg bukan2 bila aku tak kisah hubby nak karaoke ke or lepak minum2 ke or main futsal ke, sometimes I prefer taknak ikut n join dia..y?ye laa giving him space jugak,u know kdg2 all guys punya outing ni,diaorg pun ber’guy’s talk jugak sama mcm kita, kalu pegi join pun boring dok keras je kat situ baik takyah join unless la masing2 bwk bini masing2..so far,mcm tu la kitaorg,mmg slalu every weekend spend masa kat luar anak beranak, then once in a blue moon buat plan ng kwn2 sendiri then outing sendiri -the basic thing here is TRUST,I trust him as much as he trusts me..that’s the platform of every relationship rite?tp everything must be within limit laa..jgn la plak tak menyedarkan diri tu laki/bini org hah gitu la gamaknya..

Same case here with irina..takla pulak aku saje2 tinggalkan dia tak tentu psl, n kalu berpisah pun sbb dia dipinjam oleh in-law or tinggal kat kg muar, ala atuk sendirikan?esp hubby’s side,ye la cucu sorang,1st lak tu,tak sempat aku nak bukak mulut offer nak jaga dah dtg mencurah2, aku ni kira betuah jugak sbb ada option, ada alternative,lain la takdekan..mungkin tak sebebas skang..

So back to the basic point, for me it’s not the quantity that matters, we are talking bout quality here..spend masa beria anak beranak pastu bergaduh masam muka pun tak guna gakkan?like my fren,dia n hubby gi mana2 mesti bersama,tak kira la hubby punya aktiviti or dia punya aktiviti, even gi karaoke or main boling pun hubby dia heret fren n anaknya skali even fren rasa masa tu nak lepak kat rumah mengemas or rasa penat tak nak join,but her hubby tak pedulik nak gak heret bini and anak (nak tunjuk betapa mereka couple bahagia n romantic kemana2 pun sentiasa bersama), so just study this scenario:

-Hubby’s fren paksa ikut dia main badminton walaupun fren rasa nak lepak umah je
-Fren ikut tp hati ala2 tak ikhlas pastu terlambat bersiap n hubby dia marah sbb kwn2 dah menunggu
-Esoknya turn fren lak jumpa kwn2 then hubby dia dgn sengaja melambatkan diri dan dtg dgn muka masam bertangkop saja membalas dendam
-Fren sakit ati sgt2 dan tercetus pergaduhan

APA KE MAKNANYA INI SEMUA?

this is what I said,quantity ada quality zero,yg nak ikut sgt tu pahal?tak paham..kalu camni org nak ckp aku ibu tunggal ke, bini tak sedar diri ke pun takpe janji laki aku tak perangai cam lahanat, only us know each other verrry well..so don’t simply judge us..

So I’m not that bad rite?

10years relationship celebration

Baru baca kat blog noha psl gathering dia ngan ex-uni mates, aik mmg skang ni musim bergathering ek?hihi aku pun baru jugak bergathering ng geng2 kolej but mine was about 1week ago..weekend before merdeka, but baru hari ni dpt upload gambar..

basically we all dulu sama2 study kat KYPMKL, then sama2 masuk uitm except azwan gi fly australia, so kitaorg mmg geng dr kolej lg..yg girls mmg slalu jumpa in fact kalu ada masa slalu gak lepak minum2 kat kedai mamak,but yg boys nya jarang jumpa..sethn skali pun payah..kebetulan azwan yg kerja kat sana blk bercuti, khairil asikla busy manjang (tukang baca berita kat era,shift kerja dia lain bkn opis hr tu yg payah nak jumpa), hid,mon,azza pun sama asik bg alasan busy..so kitaorg decide to fix one date yg sume org free (tak free pun kena paksa freekan jugak!) n berkumpul mkn2 sambil meraikan r'ship we all yg dah masuk 10thn(1996-2006)-mula2 plan nak bergathering kat kedai ibu sebelah kolej tmpt we all slalu melepak dulu tp tak jadik..so ni la gambar2 masa bergathering; kecoh, bingit,terkinja perasan umur tu 18thn lg, but overall best n happening!heheh

Venue:T.G.I Friday's One Utama
Date: 27/08/06 2.30pm
Motif: Gathering sempena 10years relationship

with ad, shai, azwan,mon n hid..

with my best buddy nonie..ipan montel n comel sgt!hid muka asik menempek kat sume gambar,tak kose akak nak melayannya dik non oi!

sheila n daughter nurin..hid takleh menempek sbb dia yg snap pic ni

Us..kecoh!

perasan tak group ni ada yg sefamily,ada yg single,ada laki sejati n macho, ada laki 'kureng' sejati n machonya haha!mmg rojak group ni!yg buat kecohnya pun si lembut2 ni la hah!yg pasti hati mesti baek n ikhlas n all of us really treasure this friendship, puas dah susah sng bersama2 masa study dulu-next time insyaAllah ada rezeki ada umur boleh bergathering lg..

perasan tak irina takde in the pic?mommy jadi single jap, irina kat umah ma n hubby tak join sbb nak lepak ng member2 dia, so pas gathering join shai n ami yg mmg single mengukur kaki persegi keluasan one utama heheh..