Marniza off to London..

Don’t ask me what’s my feeling right now-it’s all jumbled-up. I’m happy for her, I’m proud of her but at the same time I feel so sad, anxious and down- my sister will be living in a foreign land for 4 YEARS and bring over all her lovable kids and husband and it is very super duper slim chance of us to meet her for the next 4 years-4 years mannn..4 years..bukan sekejap..and and somemore it’s London..bukan dengkil atau kuala pilah atau parit buntar perak ya yang agak2 nak visit start enjin kereta jalaaaan..or kalau kt indon or Thailand or negara2 asean seangkatabn adalah boleh digagahkan jua utk melawatkan..

Gosh..u see,for all this while I’m very close with my sister and I even blogged bout her once-she’s 1 year older than me and we are so damn closed during childhood and schooling time,in fact we felt like we were twins during those childhood years , baju kasut barang mesti indentical ok. And gradually when we grow up and get married, we are still like isi and kuku even we rarely meet due to family and career commitment. We share stories, opinions, happiness and sadness.and she’s a good listener too,always be my shoulder to cry on .so, marniza takde,sapa nak dgr keluh kesah marfuza ni?sapa nak melawat I kt spital bila bersalin nnti dan sibuk bg tips dan petua2?sapa nak offer comfy word over my anxieties or my complaint psl kerja, suami dah anak?(yess abang,I did complaint to my sister bout u bwekk ;p)

And and our kids are also closed, irina adalah sgt kamceng dgn kakak qistina and aliff, they play together and scream over toys together, they laugh, cry, mad and share pillow and mattress together,and sama2 kuat berangan ok..irina pun dah pandai, asikla tanya ‘bila kakak nak besar mummy?kakak nak pakai bra..’hebat pertanyaan tu kan?tak terjangkau dek akal fikiran,and u guess dia belajar dr sapa?yeah of course from mentor berangan dia qistina asyura.

So now boleh bygkan kesunyian yg bakal melanda kami anak beranak?qistina is now 4years old and aliff 3years old..tgh sedap buat main tau, but now they are leaving us..and only be back to msia when they are 8 and 7yrs old..arghhh…I’m gonna missed their cheeky side!i’m gonna missed my little qistina and aliff..tell me qistina, sapa akan hiburkan mummy,tokbak and tokmak dgn aksi qistina?or sapa akan memaksa kami memanggil nama qisitina sebagai qistina erra dan adik iman,iman isya?or sapa akan sibuk memakai bra sambil kaki terkepit2 berlagak spt mermaid?or sapa yg akan asik menyikat rambut sambil menonyoh bibir dgn lipstick maklong?sapa qistina?sapa?nobody..can u imagine how sad I am right now?can u imagine how lonely ur buddy iman irina after this?can u imagine ur tokbak,tokmak, maklong ,mummy and maksu’s feeling ?........it’s gonna be empty and dull after this..

In conjuction with keberangkatan ija and family to Barking London this coming friday, we held some makan2 activities..


1)kenduri doa selamat at my hometown,muar - 12th july 08

2) dinner treat at TGI Fridays Subang Parade

to my beloved sister marniza, wish u all the best in pursuing your phD at King's College London, take care mar,gonna miss u a lot..jgn lupa oghang kt sini..(teary-eyed)..

to my abg ipar yg sgt sporting dan baikhati, abg hafiz,all the best at your new place, we put hope in u to take care of marniza and that 2 little cheeky,may Allah bless your family always..

to Nur Qistina Asyura..mummy gonna miss u lot dear,A LOT..dont be naughty k syg,i'll buy you a mermaid costume when u come back to msia k,hope u make a good friend at your new school k

to Mohd Aliff Iqbal..mummy loves u much,gonna miss u much, be a good boy k adik,mama will be busy with her study,hope u'll cope up fast with your new environment

to my beloved mr R.A..start saving your money bang, your wife akan meroyan sekiranya tidak berjaya menjejakkan kaki ke London by next year, NAK PEGI LONDON JUGAAAAAKK huhuuhuuu

and last but not least,a mental note to myself;back to spenda scarlet jaya jusco 3 helai sepuluh ringgit,nak kumpul duit punya pslkan, tak reti2?;p

XX or XY?

As I’m approaching 20 weeks, one thing very obvious besides the sight of my big heavy tummy is this standard question ppl keep on throwing me everytime they meet me;what is the gender of the baby-and up to now to everybody’s surprise, I still do not know what is the gender, and when I said that,ppl will do faces like ‘eh ye ker?dah nak masuk 5bln ni takkan tak tau lg’ or ‘ala nak rahsia la tu,cpt bgtauuuuu..’and I was like ‘tidakkah kau tahu yg aku ni nseorg kepohchi dan kak nam?kak nam yg terbilang takkan nak rahsia2 punya k’ hah gitu I will respond. But itu lah kenyataannya.

Ok,let me backtrack a bit.

During my 3 mth check up, I was not keen to ask the gynae of the gender bcoz of my shock after knowing the cyst thing, so adalah tebantut nafsu di situ. So for my latest checkup which was last week,slps ketraumaan terhadap cyst keji hilang,and besides eager to know wether the baby was growing okay,we were dying to know the gender as well, bukan apa,ni tgh megasale kan,sng I nak shopping brg2 baby nnti,kalau girl takde masalah la kan,baju kakak dia byk, but what if boy?bygkan boy pakai mitten ng bootie kaler pink,and baju bunga beropol2, tak ke ngeri tu, so that’s y lah I agak excited nak tahu.

So anyway, the baby was ok,even the cyst was still there, it regresses for another 1cm (boleh tak kau lenyap jer terus wahai cyst?) and even both hubby and I did not understand 90% of what we were seeing from the detailed ultrasound, we did not wince even for a minute, as well as kakak iman irina. Her abah was telling irina to look at the baby. Obviously the poor little girl could not find baby around her and thus, had no idea what he was talking about. She kept exclaiming "Wheeeere?" mana baby kakak?’sambil mata terkebil2.

So back to the gender issue, the baby’s position was not at it best for doctor to detect the gender hence we are still not firm of the result yet. But the doctor playfully predicted the gender based on the heartbeat and the not so clear image of the part between the baby’s leg, but I still do not want to hold on it since it was not 100% confirmed yet, but then again, anything can happen and we are well-prepared should the gender change again in future checkups. So once confirm, I’ll tell you all k.

What is my preference ,some asked me-boy or girl?frankly speaking I don’t mind (typical answer heh),I’ve got my own point to have either boy or girl this time. Kalau dpt girl lagi ok jugak,at least kakak iman irina ada geng nak main masak2 or babydoll,and all her toys yg bertimbun2 tu (girlish one) bolehlah diturunkan kt adik dia. And also her baju pink yg beropol2 ,sapa nak pakai tu?kalau dpt babygirl jimat dah duit mummy,takyah beli baju byk2. Kasut, bootie, mitten, accessories sumer boleh recycle bg adik dia pakaikan.

And I think it’s also cool to have more girls in my family,ntah la maybe I was born in a family yg di dominan oleh pompuan2,;4of us girls,cuma my brother jer sorang boy(bygkan betapa terseksanya jiwa my brother dikelilingi pompuan2 bingit )we are very closed to each other,mcm kwn2 dah,we share laughter and tears,we share story and secret, we always mencapai kata2 sepakat bersama sbb kami adalah sejiwa dan dominan,so kaum2 adam dlm keluarga pak omar terpaksa la menurut shj hahaha suka suka..we do a lot of girl’s thing together,and one of it is bergosssippp!!(so tau lah mana dtgnya skill kak nam aku kan,bakat telah di asah dr rumah lagi)it’s fun u know, dr kecil smpi besar..so I want irina to experience it too,that’s why if we have another girl after this I pun tak kisah.

But I need to be fair to the husband too, ,kesian jugak kt dia kan,sorang2 takde geng-bygkan he has to layan 2 demanding girls now, everything is all about girl thing, shopping pun brg2 pompuan jer,u know now nih instead of temankan wife beli heels,dia pun dah kena teman beli heels utk anak (yer anak dara aku dah pandai melaram nak kasut tinggi),bygkan dia kena dgr something like this twice” yang ,ok tak kasut ni?” from the wife and ‘abah,cantik tak kasyut bunyi kakak?’ from the daughter- Dahtu kena paksa layan wife or anak posing2 ngan kasut or baju baru, kesiankan? Dahla kt rumah tu tekak2 perempuan jer kedgran, desibel suara anak pun dah sama naik dgn maknya, baik ketawa, baik menekak,giler la aku groom anak aku dah abis sebijik marfuza jr ,ni kalau kluar sorang lg marfuza jr komfem la rmh tu girl power abiss..gosh..now I realized kemungkinan tekanan jiwa yg hebat sedang melanda mr r.a..

Hmmm..i need to give him a boy,if not this time,next time must try hard hard one,org tua pun ckp,at least ada sorang boy,pembawa nama family katanya..then boleh la mr r.a share some interest with his son; main ps2, main futsal, main gitar, tgk bola..


layankan jer la bapakmu itu nak..


oh speaking of tgk bola,during final match euro 2008, I teman him to watch the live match,which was at 2.45am-we slept in front of the tv, and as soon as the match started,I cudn’t help myself from feeling sleepy, ye lah orgnya bukan kaki bola, niat suci di hati hanyalah nak teman si hubby,so I tried very hard to create conversation on the soccer stuff i.e "u think y david beckham married posh spice?dia tuh skepeng sgtlah muka mcm bongkak bla bla,eh u thnk his sex scandal was real or not?bla bla bla"

And some question like

"eh kening ballack berdarah,wat happened,wat happened?tell me tell me" dlm keadaan separa sedar and the last question yg aku ingat sebelum hubby naik darah ialah ‘ kenapa nama dia puyol bang?baik dia letak puyuh jer kan’ sambil gelak2 manja ,immediately pastu aku telah diarahkan tido hoh!

darling, just pray that the doctor's prediction is right..so that u'll never have to sleep alone while waiting for the soccer match, and nobody will ask u about the puyol-puyuh thing again..huhuhu

on top of all thiskan..ni semua kerja Allah,tak kisah la babyboy ker girl,janji sihat sejahtera sempurna sifatnya,i tak mintak lain dah..aminnn..aminnn..