Embracing the final days..

Tell me I’m still normal after u read this.

I’m approaching my 36 weeks and I’m sooo can’t wait to give birth. Cant wait,cant wait,cant wait. I’m getting so impatient nowadays. Why u asked me?

- Sleepless night due to cramp di sana sini

- Terrible backache (mcm pinggang kena karate)

- Shortness of breath

- Braxton hicks

- Heaviness & bloatiness

- Frequent visit to the toilet (letih,tatkala jalan pun dah terhempap2)

- Pelvic pressure (beberapa kali percubaan nak terkencing didlm seluar tetapi telah berjaya dikawal)

- Swollen and numbness of legs and hands here n there

- Ketiak kehitaman (kenapakah perlu aku menghebohkan ini?)

- Leher kehitaman

- My weight sudah di tahap yg menakutkan, I’m almost 70kgs now, I already gained 20kgs and mind to tell u I haven’t reached the full term yet, if I am to give birth at 40weeks, komfem lah akan membesar sebagai johan, sng2lah 76kilo dlm tangan k,arrghh

- I notice that besides the drawing cabinet, I’m the next bulkiest ‘object’ in my department, and don’t ask me to go to admin dept tmpt amoi2 slim dan seksi itu semua berkumpul, dgn keadaan fizikal yg menyamai sebuah mesin fotostat, terasa diri ini sgt menonjol dan begitu BESAAAAAR

- Speaking of menonjol, my belly button starts to protrude and it looks really ugly and scary. Irina always utter this when she saw my belly-button;" eee pusat mommy dah takde lubang,lubang dia dah hilang!" dgn wajah penuh ketakutan dan kegusaran-and it hurts too.

- Still on the weight issue, due to my current state now whereby walking has started to be a chore,the colleagues start to make fun of it and proposed that security guard to fetch me from the car using the wheelchair and wheeled me to the lift-and to add to the misery, they said it’s better to make the forklift standby at the service lift (used to hoist heavy equipment) in case they need to bring me to the hospital-oh service van pun kena standby jugak sbb diaorg ckp keta tak muat nak sumbat i..wheelchair?service van?FORKLIFT??? hmmppffff..kejammmm!!

- Sbb paling utama ialah I hate feeling helpless. There are so many things I cannot do, and am restricted from doing. Am I incompetent or what?and I miss to pamper irina,miss to carry her,miss to let her sit on my lap and lean against me-I can’t offer that much to her
now (I’m all belly bebeh) dan selalu pula di marahi tatkala mahu menyelit dan bermanja
atas riba mommy,poor my daughter..

But wait a minute, despite all the ongoing sufferings, there are still some other thing left to enjoy - I should enjoy getting all the stares from strangers, I should enjoy the constant wrong guesses made by others about my baby’s gender, I should enjoy the royalty treatment I am getting from people around me and I should enjoy the full and endless support that I get from my hubby, my family and my inlaws.

Yupp,that’s it.

Oh, I should be thankful too. After all, this smooth pregnancy is double the blessing, and I am just thankful to Allah I have made it this far.

Alhamdulillah.