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Hi.

I'm back.

Thanks for all the concern n moral support that i received from u my cyber frens..syg u all,tak sia2 melakukan pengaduan kt blog, u all mmg supportive n gave all the constructive comments/ideas, thanks all,muahs muahs lah!

so, as what has been requested by my dear rafiqah in the previous comment for me to blog on the progress of my poket-rabak problem, i think at this moment we will just 'pejam mata' on the bills we gonna get. We already 'pejam mata' about rm12k yg perlu dibyr kpd lawyer n agent-thanks to mr r.a's saving account and ah long2 dikalangan sedara mara. We are not worry as we will pay back the money to ahlong2 once we settle with epf withdrawal. Tolak deposit rumah hutang piutang segala,saki baki sisa2 duit tu boleh la guna utk psg grill ,kipas, wiring and all..hmm,kitchen cabinet spt kelam dan berbalam2..takpe la settle benda penting dulu..

abis cerita rumah.

Back to the car issue. I already survey the potential car to buy. The important criteria ialah mesti murah dan byran tdk membebankan dan tidak mencekik kerongkong, sng cite M.U.R.A.H, criteria lain tak penting;brape ribu c.c ke, vvt ke,vtec ke v neck ke yg penting boleh bwk aku gi opis -n i found one,sesuai sgt la kan ngan budget aku, rm286 every mth 100% loan for 9 years!heheh-dia ialah si kancil 860 manual-tapi yg sengalnya skang ni ialah aku tak reti nk drive manual, kayu tak kayu aku ni?viva pun ok gak,but 10% downpayment..bout rm4k gak nak kena kuar..takkan duit epf jadik mangsa lagi kot?confirm la kitchen cabinet aku dlm kenangan..

so now..rumah akan start kena byr bln 10, and kereta kena beli next mth,so in between aku kena settlekan utang2 credit card dan tanggungan2 yg tak sepatutnya so that by bulan 10 bila aku kena byr rumah and keta taklah perit sgt. So belajar2 la membeli brg yg perlu shj, sepit2 rambut ke, rantai manik, women's weekly, glittery make up sume kena cut sbb aku make up camne pun muka aku tetap tak cun (boleh tetiba?)

so far,that's the current status. I feel much better day by day n start to organize things back-maybe aritu aku meroyan sbb mcm terperanjat with all the sudden things, but now saya sudah boleh bertenang dan tidak lg diserang sawan bila berckp soal duit..tarik nafas..hembus..tarik nafas..hembus..i'm cool man,i'm cool..

Oh ya, i did a pregnancy test last monday. Jantung berdebar jgn ckp la..tiba2 gerun pikir psl getting pregnant.

dropped the urine on the sample..pejam mata..then tgk the result..

satu garis..phewww..

after all the sesak nafas n sawan in a past weeks,honestly said aku tak prefer utk pregnant, not now,not before i settle all the major things one by one, but kalau ada rezeki tetiba aku pregnant, alhamdulillah syukur pd Allah..aku tak tolak rezeki..yg confusednya bila aku tgk result tu n tau yg aku syok sendiri je perasan mengandung, half of me ckp 'pheww lega' but half of me rasa frust jugak.. very obvious that i'm in a state of confusion..great confusion..kekeliruan dan kecelaruan di dlm hidup-aku rasa penyakit mental block aku masih bersisa 13%.

I'm taking 3 days off starting from tmrw, blk t'ganu for my SIL's wedding this coming saturday, dan aku mcm dah terbyg2 pasar kedai payang tgh melambai2..kain sutera, kaftan, baju kelawar chiffon..ughhh!confirm aku ikat kaki kt tiang pelamin so takyah kluar berabis duit-dont ask me why dekat tiang pelamin.

Take care ya all.